New Years Resolutions

I don't know why I even bother anymore cause I never seem to be able to get anything accomplished that I set at the beginning of the year. But this year I do feel pumped! MAybe its because of this long break I have from work. But it just feels different somehow.

So these are a few things I would like to accomplish this year.

1. Get my own place

Have been wanting to move out forever but just worried about the money part (i should be ok now finally!) and the loneliness factor since I'd be living alone. But I think I can manage and I realize I have great friends I can talk to or hang out with whenever that will make me feel better about myself! :)

2. Learn the fucking guitar

This was last years and I failed miserably. Too much Guitar Hero and Rock Band and not enough REAL guitar learnin'. I need to get off my ass and learn either by lessons or by self dedication. Agh, it makes me mad thinking about how I've had my acoustic guitar for like 4 years and I STILL can't play! sigh

3. Technical Certifications

A+ PC Repair first. Then Microsoft, Cisco, etc. The skys the limit. I need these to build up my resume and enhance my career as an IT professional so I can afford to live my dreams of traveling the world. This is of utmost importance and probably should be higher.

4. Lose 20-30 lbs.

I'm fat. There I said it. I've been overweight for awhile now thanks to too many Cheeseburgers and beer. Time to fix that diet and get my ass going regularly to the gym again! Especially with my high school reunion just a year away! AH!!

5. Woman

Get some semblance of a woman or girl in my life. an area I've been sorely lacking. Where are you girl of my dreams!? haha. I'm sure if I get the first 4 done though this one will come naturally so I shouldn't sweat about it.

Linkin Park concert

Man it was great. I'll post some pics up later on fb and here tomorrow. Too late tonight. Well off to bed.

New playlist

Changed up the playlist.

Also the first song has been in my head all day.

"Leave out all the Rest" by Linkin Park

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

Dream

Ok. now for my weird dream i had sat. night. I didn't drink so alcohol was not involved in this. I'm just weird I guess :p

So I'm on vacation with my family somewhere, I think Missouri?, and were at some restaurant. Ahh can't remember what happens, something important though. Then as we are driving off in our minivan there is this sports car. I think it was a corvette. Anyways my dad is driving the van and the corvette is heading the opposite way on the road and making a turn into a shopping center or something across our lane. But he shouldve waited and he pulled out a little to far and my dad clipped him a little bit and spun the guys car some

so the guy is pissed and he is accelerating really fast in the vette to cathc up to us. we stop somewhere, i think it was an outdoor art gallery, and there are 3 guys that come out of the vette. Yeah i know i think it only seats 2. And 1 of the guys is Ham from The Sandlot, one of my favorite movies.



Anyways, i see them coming after us so i clock the first guy and knock him out. Then the other guy, not Ham, is all pissed and is arguing with my dad. and while thats going on, Ham comes after me and I really let him have it. I knock out his teeth and am pummeling him while he is on the ground. Then I walk back to my dad and tell the other guy he might want to check on his friend. Then we leave, haha.

Its so weird, I always liked Ham frim the Sandlot, I dont know why I was so violent.

Maybe I have pent up aggression issues or something. hmm

Blog updated!

Played around with some html and added a playlist of some music that I like to the sidebar. Check it out!

Work vs. Passion

Time for another update.

I had an OK weekend, didn't do to much. My parents went out of town with my brother camping so I stayed home and watched the house. I've been trying to catch the Olympics as much as I can too.

I had a really good conversation with one of my friends last night on Work vs. Passion. This is exactly what I needed to hear at this time as I was struggling with this in my life. The advice might sound very simple but I just didn't see it before I guess.

He told me that whatever it is you do in life for a living, you must be committed to it 100% when you are there. If your job sucks and you are always thinking about when you get off or when the weekend comes, you'll lead a miserable life for those 8 hours a day. Your performance might suffer because you are more concerned with other things that what immediately should concern you; that being your work.

When you are off work, this is when you should spend your time doing whatever it is you love doing the most. Your passion. Throw yourself into whatever it is that you love doing. And use your daily job as an income source to fund it.

Now this isn't to say that you should work at a job you hate just to do whatever it is you like afterwards. Work at something you can be happy with but don't forget to stay true to yourself after work is done.

Lately, work has been extremely dull for me. But because of the pay and insurance benefits, I don't see myself leaving anytime soon. I was always looking forward to getting home but the stupid thing is once I was home, I didn't do anything. I was still bored! I'd just sit and play videogames or watch a movie. I felt like I was living a dull and empty life and it was killing me. Laziness is the number one culprit and I'm going to make a strong effort to avoid just wasting my life away.

My passion has always been music. I was in my school band all through middle school and highschool (a total of 7 years) and I really liked it. I have my own acoustic guitar I got about 4 years ago but I still can't play it as I haven't learned it. I keep telling myself I'll get to it but I never have. Everyday when I get off work now, I'm going to pick up my guitar for atleast 30 mins and strum away to some chord books I have and learn.

Of course I also have an A+ Certification test coming up on the 23rd to study for, so I must contribute a lot of time to that as well. Because if I don't like the position I'm in, the thing to do is to better myself and learn more to advance in my career.

Weekend warrior

Its Friday again! Woo!! TGIF. It always seems like the only time I get to really live is on the weekends. Like during the week its just 5 days of crap, just to make money and survive. Then the weekend comes, and I blow it all on drinks or clubs or games or something. This weekend though I'll be staying at home I think, maybe have some people over cause I'll have the house to myself Sat.

I'm going to the Laff Stop tonight to see some unfunny comedian Jimmy Roulette. I watched some clips on YouTube and yeah, he's pretty dumb. But the tickets are free and I'm with friends so I can't complain.


I signed up for the CompTIA A+ Certifiaction exam on August 23rd. I need to start studying again but I think overall it will be pretty easy. Once I pass that, I can move on to Network Administrator tests and Microsoft Certification exams so that will be good for my career.

I can hardly wait for Rock Band 2 to come out next month. I love Rock Band so much, but its been hindering me cause I havent touched my real guitar in awhile haha. I will learn though, I made a promise to myself. Its just Rock Band is so addicting and since I'm allready good at it, I love it.

OK thats it for this entry. I'll try to update more Sera! lol